An Apology and A Confession

The apology:
When I started my blog the sole purpose was to scare myself into being more financially responsible. However, after the first few blog posts I felt a surge of adrenaline. People thought I was funny. Me, Jillian, the girl who hardly ever spoke in high school, because I was afraid I would say something stupid. And, lets be honest, I would have because that's just who I am. I felt amazing and then immediately sick. I wanted to feel the way you made me feel when you said I was hilarious, all the time... But that's just impossible. Mostly because I'm not funny all the time, probably only 20% of the time. Nevertheless, because I am an over achiever I wanted to try to be funnier more frequently.

If you have ever tried this then you already know it is a recipe for disaster. You cannot force funny. Bathroom humor and one day a guy walked into a bar jokes are proof of that. But, when I force funny I am embarrassed and ashamed to say it is far worse. I am mean funny- god I suck lol. I'm saying all of this, because after much thought and guilt I realized I needed to apologize to you for my insensitivity in my post last week.

I should not have dissed the 12 steps. Alcoholism is very scary and I cannot imagine the toll it takes on everyone involved. If those 12 steps work for some people more power to them. So I hope you can forgive me for my thoughtless jabs-- I am sorry.

Note: While I did feel it necessary to apologize for my cracks on the 12 steps, I hold firm on my yoga beliefs-- and that will never change.

The Confession:
Getting back to the business of the budget, I am sure you are all now acutely aware that I spent the weekend in Vegas, the antitheses of saving money. My confession? I went to Vegas and got a SUI- yup, ladies and gents I was spending under the influence. Fortunately for me I don't gamble and I got a huge tip on my paycheck Friday that paid for my incidentals... So despite a weekend romp in Vegas I still managed to break even. Whew.

Thanks for your continued support.
Xoxo Jildo.